For the first time in my life. I do not have a clear direction for what I want to do in the long term. I mean real plans that will happen, not like skateboarding the length of the Great Wall Of China or anything silly but more along the lines of "WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE?".
I have ideas, and I have things in the works. I just originally figured on being Active Duty until 44 then rolling into something I want to do on the civilian side. Well, here I am. I have been a civilian, sort of, for just over one year. I like the reserves a lot. I am in a really good unit that gives a damn about their people. My civilian job sucked from the get-go. I am happily free from that place.
It does leave me in a strange setting. What to do from here?
1. Find a job, any job. Bartender, School Bus Driver, Home Depot, etc.
2. Go to Graduate School (the Better Half's fave idea)
3. Become a bum? Not a real option.
4. Find something similar to what I have always done. Namely Logistics/Supply Chain Management.
Frankly, I am confused and confounded to distraction.
I think a McJob until grad school starts is in order. That way I keep some money coming in (besides the reserves) and I will feel more useful.
Meanwhile, I have gotten further into my photography and working on my book. I have some time scheduled for the road to see friends, family, etc. There is the possibility of getting my photos shown in a gallery as well. That is encouraging and pretty cool.
In my other hobby, reenacting, I am at a quandary. I had been considering divesting myself of excess gear and perhaps cobbling together a new impression. I had though of WWI French. However I do not trust my 120 year old Lebel to fire blank rounds. I am also much more interested in doing a WWI Brit impression. I started to go that direction 15 odd years ago when i got dragged into World War II instead.
I have a 1917 Enfield and a 1915 Webley that I trust to operate and have fired live previously. Blanks in .455 Webley and .303 are also much more common. I even have some bits and bobs of field gear, to include the helmet. So I am a good part of the way there. Besides, I do not speak French, despite my French Canadian spouse's efforts to teach me. I also feel I need to branch out and join a unit I do not already know everyone well. I can piece together an impression over time as to not adversely impact my finances.
That I how I did it for 20 odd years, and meeting some new people would be good. I will still do what I do now as far as impressions. That wont change for the time being.
I know I'd be completely fucked without the love and support of my better half. She does not allow me to feel depressed, seriously, She gets mad! I think she may resort to using a hammer or baseball bat! So despite being lost in unfamiliar conditions. I know things will achieve balance one way or another. Wow, that sounded quite Zen huh?